The Here and No Where


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Every day is a challenge. Today I sit here wondering why, how, and when did I get here.
Feeling unsatisfied with my work, feeling lost from all the criticism, feeling confused about life decisions……where do you go when you keep getting pushed away from what your hand and mind are telling you to do? Who’s right when it comes to telling you what’s good in art, art scholars, your art friends, your professors, the public? I’m up to the point that i don’t even know what I want to make anymore…everytime I doubt myself and become paralyzed. The urge of making is gone. I’m depleted, and feeling hopeless.

Everyone has their own opinion on what direction “art” is going or should go. What the hell….I just want to make art that makes sense to me, so what it’s too obvious, or objective, or direct. I’m making a statement not a damn puzzle but of course the art scholars what to sit there and stare at the wall with a piece of wood, silicone and hair and say that it has wonder, it can be many things, you can question it.

How do you make work that has a purpose and a statement and create a moment of wonder? Or at least a puzzle so you can stand there and stare and ask….as if an object is going to come out and start talking? My problem is my work is screaming a statement and it’s too quick for others or they just don’t care about the subject. Perhaps it’s the second one. Ok, I get it that no one really will ever care so much about the things that I care about, so how do you merge your passion and interests into art that people will want to collect and admire?

I’m so fed up with what is Art…or should I say High Art. It’s either one way or the other.

Art is like playing the lottery, and so perhaps I will never win.

My night rant on the last week of grad school….


What is Sex Really Selling?

Interesting blog- thoughts on sex appeal and it’s history through advertisements

Everywhere you turn, you see it — advertisements that feature models in seductive poses or racy images that entice customers to purchase the product. Advertisers are increasingly utilizing the theory that “sex sells” in order to promote their products. Why? Because it works.

 The link between sex and advertising has been traced back all the way to the beginning of advertising in the 19th century. One of the earliest known advertisements that used sex to sell were trading cards tobacco companies placed into their cigarettes packages. These collectible cards featured women wearing scandalous outfits (for their time) with excessive skin exposure, encouraging men to smoke a specific brand of cigarettes.

 However, the use of erotic images in advertising didn’t stop there. Later in the 19th century, Woodbury’s Facial Soap released an advertisement suggesting intimacy between a man and women. With the tag line, “A Skin You Love to Touch,” the…

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My thoughts on The REAL Women Movement


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Yes feminism is about having a choice but it’s also about having equal power, respect, and income as men. It’s not about using sex appeal to retrieve all those things. It’s about using your intelligence and self-respect to be empowered. It all started with the “Ideal” American women icon from the 50’s – Marilyn Monroe. A beautiful natural women named Norma Jean with light brown hair, natural curves, and large breast. Unfortunately she had a bad childhood where she was sexually assaulted. This resulted in her being able to accept objectification through out her career, creating herself into someone else- a character named Marilyn Monroe. Changed name, changed hair color, changed face, and an “ideal” image of what women should look like was created. Madonna followed, Pamela Anderson, Cameron Electra, Holly Madison, etc…..a culture trend started to evolve. All who follow are sheeps who forget to appreciate how they were born, they don’t know how to feel empowered with looking different from what they see in the media. Their self-esteem is affected and they are brainwashed thinking we are all suppose to follow the “ideal” women figure. In reality the fake breast, fake lips, fake butt implants are just pure materialistic, attracting people for the wrong reasons- sex appeal= sex, instead for what’s in the inside. It’s like a facade, a mask, and in reality real men don’t appreciate it and the ones that do are normally the ones that only care about having a trophy wife, materialistic men, who tend to cheat because they will never be pleased. We can’t escape age! I’m completely for the Real Women Movement! It’s about teaching women to embrace their true beauty instead of changing themselves to portray an ideal image of what the media has been blasting to us over the last two centuries. There’s a difference between working your ass off to tone your body for yourself, to feel accomplished and then there’s the women who make a doctor appointment to change their appearance. Love yourself for who you are and not what you can change into. ImageImageImageImageImageImage

My absense


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It’s been a long time since my last post. I feel ashamed for not staying up to date with my blog but I have my good reasons. In the last year, I planned my wedding which took my entire life and mind to do. Finally our wedding day came on 11/10/12 and it was a total success minus the lack of gray linens I requested but I survived without them. Then I went on our pre-honeymoon to Ecuador to see my family and travel the country. It had been eleven years that I hadn’t returned to visit, so a lot had changed, minus the dirty streets and poverty levels which still exist. The nature life of Ecuador still maintains beautiful! Visited many waterfalls, mountains, volcanoes, and beaches! We have soo many pictures that I’ve been lazy and have held back from posting them because I know it will be a lot of work since I’m picky about having them orientated in the correct format. I also finally graduated this month, earning honor roll stature and a BFA in Fine Art.

Now trying to catch up with lose ends. Hoping to find a school where I can conduct a huge research I would like to conduct on American and their views on plastic surgery for vanity purposes. And of course many other topics which I will keep to myself for now.

If anyone has any good school recommendations that will consist of a school with strong Fine Art program and is research base school please feel free to leave me your suggestions.

Rococo Fragonard’s The Swing – Smarthistory


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Rococo Fragonard's The Swing – Smarthistory.

I took an 18th century art course about two years ago and it really helped me appreciate most traditional classical type of paintings. This particular painting, is one of my favorites and I found a cool video explaining the hidden symbolisms. It’s quite interesting how a painting can mask sexual tensions. For some reason I feel like this painting was more personal to the artist than what paintings were to artists back in the Enlightment period.

Nathalie Djurberg does a video in reference to this painting:
The Swing, 2005
Video (color, sound), Ed. 4/4
Duration: 5 min. 35 sec.

My work and Sarah Lucas


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"Five Lists"


I just discovered an old work from Sarah Lucas that I haven’t seen before when I research her. It’s on MoMa’s website.
Well this work reminds me of my own work “Once A Little Princess” 2011. It’s funny how you can connect with another artist but still be able to have a different style. I like artists that deal with everyday things women have to face. Sarah Lucas, Kiki Smith, and Tracey Emin are great examples…